Two days ago I became single. It’s been 2 years, 3 months, and 3 days since I’ve been single. It was a great 2 years and change filled with more love than I could ask for, memories that I’ll always cherish, and mementos that I’ll probably keep forever.
He’ll be the new standard I use to judge if a relationship is worth it. He’ll always have a special place in my heart, alongside my first love and my first heartbreak. He’ll always have my random firsts: riding a motorcycle, traveling cross country, pulling off long-distance for a year. And I’ll always have the memories from our 2 years that we spent head over heels in love.
But the change in our relationship was far from ideal (entirely my fault). The extra time was spent confused and hurt. But even through it, we gave the relationship our all. For 3 months we tried to work things out. 3 months that I am so grateful for, even if it didn’t end up working. 3 months that most other people wouldn’t have gotten. 3 months that we spent loving each other, fighting for our relationship, and working on communication.
If we had to break up, I couldn’t ask for a better way to break up; breaking up only after trying for 3 months. Breaking up with a better understanding of each other. Breaking up because we had tried and failed, not because we were afraid to try.
So thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for a great 2 years and change. Thank you for giving me a great promposal and spending prom with me; thank you for teaching me about computers and video games and cars; thank you for celebrating graduation with me; thank you for putting up with a year of long distance; and maybe someday you’ll be able to whole-heartedly forgive me.
He’ll be the new standard I use to judge if a relationship is worth it. He’ll always have a special place in my heart, alongside my first love and my first heartbreak. He’ll always have my random firsts: riding a motorcycle, traveling cross country, pulling off long-distance for a year. And I’ll always have the memories from our 2 years that we spent head over heels in love.
But the change in our relationship was far from ideal (entirely my fault). The extra time was spent confused and hurt. But even through it, we gave the relationship our all. For 3 months we tried to work things out. 3 months that I am so grateful for, even if it didn’t end up working. 3 months that most other people wouldn’t have gotten. 3 months that we spent loving each other, fighting for our relationship, and working on communication.
If we had to break up, I couldn’t ask for a better way to break up; breaking up only after trying for 3 months. Breaking up with a better understanding of each other. Breaking up because we had tried and failed, not because we were afraid to try.
So thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for a great 2 years and change. Thank you for giving me a great promposal and spending prom with me; thank you for teaching me about computers and video games and cars; thank you for celebrating graduation with me; thank you for putting up with a year of long distance; and maybe someday you’ll be able to whole-heartedly forgive me.